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One of my hardest moments

One of my hardest moments is to not know what’s going to happen next. When feeling of fear consumes me I feel anxious, anxiety and a feeling of hopeless. I was always afraid of hospitals. So to overcome my fear I had to set foot in one. I had to prepare myself to become strong. On this day something tragic happened. With tears in my eyes I ran through the automatic doors. Situations that you have no control over can be frightening this situation was no exception. As I waited in line to be called next I stood timidly. The line was long all I can think of Is darkness. Is my aunt going to be ok? What’s taking so long? I’m just trying to go back to see her. The security guard stares at me while I paste nervously, I’m trying to hold it together. How could I? I just received a call my aunt had a heart attack!

Okay I’m getting anxious. As I’m getting closer to the reception desk my phone rings, it’s my mother. I could barely understand what she was trying to say. I didn’t have service. Dang! The call just dropped. As the line became shorter my hands are sweating. My mom calls again. I still have no service. The call keeps going in and out. I have now one person in front of me. I’m thinking will they let me back. Gosh! It’s cold in here. There are so many people also waiting to be seen. My mind began to race again. I finally get to the reception desk. I asked to go see my great aunt. A doctor took me back through the doors. We go on an elevator and proceed to the 5th floor.

My eyes are starting to feel with tears. As I get off the elevator I follow the doctor down the hall. There is so much commotion on this floor. Family members are crying, people are yelling. I finally reach my aunts room. There stood my grandmother and mom. They only allowed 3 people at a time come in the room.

I’m looking at her looking so hurt. Her hair was well combed into a bun. But, her face looked swollen. Her hands were cold. So I requested another blanket. My aunt didn’t know we were there. They surgically placed a balloon in her chest so her heart can pump blood properly. I went to visit her every day for two weeks. Every time she wasn't aware of my presence. I’d sit and read to her even though I was terrified of hospitals. Nothing was going to keep me from being by her side. I combed her long gray hair. I painted her nails. Being scared she might not wake up. As I Began to pray. Everyday I went to visit. I even had friends come by just to sing to her. Yes, still being in this cold and unfamiliar hospital. Hearing the monitors beep constantly. Over hearing nurses gossip. Me thinking can she just wake up. My struggle to keep entering the place. Where my great aunt laid. Although, she looked peaceful. It daunted me. I never knew a pain like this before. I never knew a fear can consume my thoughts. I had so many memories pouring. She is a woman that helped raise me. What would I do without her? Remembering, her teaching me and how kind she was to me when other’s weren’t. After all my memories flooded and I reached my last memory. Of us on Christmas Day. It is almost Christmas. Can a Christmas miracle happen? I kissed her forehead and left. I had to go home to my children.

I kept praying and on Christmas Eve a miracle happens.

Then, Christmas eve I went to visit and she had the biggest smile on her face. The entire time she was aware of my presence. I believe till this day she said that to make my heart smile. I also overcame my fear of hospitals because love is that powerful. And it is a blessing to be next to your loved ones. She ended up being released. I was happy to drive her home and to be out of the hospital. Overcoming a fear is hard. But you become stronger by just doing it! I overcame my fear. My aunt Gail is my heart. I was pleased to hear she was recovering well at the last doctor’s appointment. I currently visit her on a regular basis. I’d like to express the experience I encountered. It was heartbreaking. She has a fibulator. I’m glad because it will help her heart. Naturally, it’ll shock her heart if she’s ever having a heart attack. That’s a reason to set aside your fears.